October 25, 2013, 9:14 am
I can see Lenny's point, its a lesson alright. I got blue lights flashed at me, I was doing the upper end of 110 on a motorway and an undercover pulled behind me and flashed his lights at me - scared the bajeebus out of me. Now, I wont say I never ever reach that direction of the speedo, I slip up, and I do on occasion speed (most of us do!) but I dont push my luck anywhere near as often or as much as I used to. Purely for the fear of those blue lights!
These things can be a hard life lesson to learn and thats with a positive outcome, I truely hope that you dont lose your license, but make sure if you do end up in front of a bench, you grovel! you apologise and enforce the idea that you have spent every waking moment since your incident regretting the stupidity of your errors. You have lost sleep because you have awoken from dreams where you were in the exact same situation and the worst happened, someone stepped in front of you and you killed someone. You tell them that the worst of it has slipped into reality and you have developed a fear that you would today be standing up not for speeding but death by dangerous driving, and that you cannot emphasise how stupid you were and how much you have learned from the experience.
Now I am not telling you this to help you "get off" with it, I personally have had this experience, I (touch wood) have not had to face the consequences of speeding, and have a clean license, and have had these dreams, I have had these moments where for a month after I was in fear of how my life would change should I have lost my license, and I can tell you - its horrific!
Since christmas eve last year, my speeding is barely existant compared to how I was before. I focus more on MPG than I do reaching dizzy heights of the speedo and think I have learned a great lesson from it, and I really hope that you do to.
On a serious note, you need to do a lot of reflection. I hope that you do learn from it and I hope you fill your boots with remorse and reflection because if you do end up in front of a bench, you will need every ounce of that to save your license and your wallet.